This is a frustrating state of mind. When you have a hard time prioritizing things, your thoughts. Words just don’t come out as you want. Even in written language, you can’t figure out your thoughts or words.
Even trying to read articles or posts makes it difficult. My attention span is not there. And I want to give that attention to people who are reaching out. But it’s just not there. It’s difficult.
The sleep changes suck. I don’t really want to be up until 2am or 3am.
Even trying to complete forms for WSIB or state facts or documentation is difficult. When your executive function is not operating properly, you can’t communicate things as they need you to. You have a hard time reading through Policies in their org. But that is how the system is set up – the employee is supposed to provide the facts.
I literally feel like a wasted person and no one really understands. I’m sure there are some that may but having those close to me trying to understand is an impossible feat to explain. …maybe it is just that idea of running off to not be seen again or…
AuDN4T 
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