Just when I thought the suicide ideation was gone, it hit today. I’m on a tread mill and these thoughts just don’t leave. It comes in waves. I just want to leave my phone at home and not be found. I’m just done with these games. Like I’m done. What do people want from me.
I’m exhausted. I’m confused about everything. I’m exhausted from being exhausted. I’d rather go out there and get some shots but there is no energy. I couldn’t even get around to making a coffee even though I really wanted one. Ended up just having a Red Bull but that didn’t even hit like a coffee does.
I got nothing. That’s it.
AuDN4T 
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