Why is it that I have to live up to an expectation? Set by who? I have gone through so much shit in the last 3 years. Where my body was struggling with stress. Resulting in multiple trips to see doctors – who wouldn’t really fix the problem. And I wasn’t really seen by my…

I keep struggling with my mom with the topic of who I am. She continuously gets upset that I am not who she envisions me to be. It’s hard when parents put these expectations on their kids. They need to play soccer or hockey or baseball or do dance lessons because it’s what the parent…

I’ve been debating street photography for quite some time now. I enjoy it – you see candid moments between people and environments. You see a glimpse into a moment of time and it’s gone in a second, a minute or an hour. It both takes me out of my comfort zone but also lets me…

It’s heart breaking and frustrating when my mom can’t see me for me. I’m supposed to be this image in her head. Fit her expectations. I shouldn’t have done a degree in OHS. It wasn’t a good idea to apply for Radiation Sciences. I should have been an optometrist or a veterinarian. But then she…

It was kind of messed up; I feel like the experiences with unpleasant individuals overshadowed a lot of the positive. This is super unfortunate because there were many positives that came out of it. Many great people and friends made. The first day I got to the building I didn’t have much instructions on how…

Met up with a friend from university today. It’s funny, I initially thought I’d take the TTC, then I flip-flopped and thought maaaaaybe I’ll take the car. Then went back to taking the TTC, and back to taking the car. Went back and forth maybe a couple of times until I decided on the TTC…

I’m struggling a bit. Why did the org say I’m a key employee in the contract? That feels like a strong word or term to use? Reflecting on org structures – you realize how inefficient they are when people game processes. Are they truly using them how they were built or just trying to add…

Speaking with my godmother today, she brought up an incident where her son’s friend was sharing of suicidal feelings at the age of 13. This is a tricky situation to be in. Bullying can be hard on kids. Fitting in school is also difficult because not everyone is popular. Being different can make you an…

Conversations I reflect back on having conversations with people. I think back to when my uncle (technically my cousin, but in Ukrainian culture, he would be considered my uncle) driving me to a Ukrainian event I was performing at with my Ukrainian Dance Ensemble. During the car ride, it felt like he was pulling teeth.…